The Sweet Tooth Strikes Again!

So, last week MW and I did quite a bit of baking. Awhile back, I purchased the book Pinkalicious...which I regret. The little girl is quite sassy in the book and I end up having to ad-lib most of it every time we read it. The trouble is, priss remembers how I "read it" last time and I don't! So that makes for interesting conversation, and she is obsessed with the book and all things pink so we better loose the book or find some memory for Mama. Anyway, she has been asking for pink cupcakes every time we read the book, so we decided to make pink cupcakes last Tuesday. They were yummy and she enjoyed sharing with friends. Then on Thursday, I had a chocolate attack so I made brownies and ate 3/4 of the pan in 24 hours. She enjoyed the two that she got to eat! She loves "ta-ko-late" like her Mama!

THEN, on Saturday we decided to practice with our cookies on a stick pan (the first go round they were HUGE because I put too much sugar cookie batter in the molds) so we made chocolate chip cookies (see above pics for how much she enjoyed the process!) The best part was when I pulled a spoon out of the drawer to drop the batter into the pan. MW busted out laughing and said "Mama, you can't use dat one! It's da spankin' spoon!" I about lost it, and tried to compose myself as I explained that wooden spoons are used for things other than when we disobey and need a spanking-you also must know that we have a spanking spoon upstairs, downstairs and in the car thanks to my friend Kathryn's advice! Anyway, the cookies on a stick were a bust. I put too much batter in the molds again AND I burnt them, but she didn't seem to mind. I love having time with her in the kitchen. It's a test of patience and I have to remember that we are going to have a HUGE mess every time, but when she said "This is so fun Mama-I love dis!" I was reminded of the importance of quality time and making special memories with her. Things always seem so busy with her little brother between nursing, diaper changes, outfit changes from yet another blow out etc...I know that I neglect time with her. I can't believe that she's 2 1/2 and growing up so fast-I'm going to hold on tight and enjoy every "sweet" minute! Thanks be to God for the gift of being a Mommy to my precious baby girl.

1/2 of a year and What's his name?

Someone pinch me because I'm not sure where the time has gone! I didn't even write a 5 month post...I mean it's not like I'm sitting around the house eating bon bon's, but I do want to document what's going on! My little man is 6 months old, and my baby girl is almost 2 1/2. The past 2 months have been wonderful! Baby Banks has been growing like crazy. Our last appointment with the cardiologist was July 2nd and we have been placed on the "Call in 2 1/2 years" list! The flap has still not closed HOWEVER his pulmonary pressure was wonderful and his ECHO checked out really well, so for now, unless he shows us some other sign clinically-we don't have to go back until my little man turns 3! That's a huge praise for us! 20% of our population is walking around with small hole like this and the cardiologist said that his only restriction if it did not close would be no scuba diving...I think we can handle that! :)

My little man constantly looks like a glazed doughnut because of all of his drool!! If we could just get those bottom teeth in he would feel like a new man! He has found his voice and is babbling "daaadaadaaa" go figure! :)

And as for his name, we are going to call him "Banks". He is currently called 'baby brother' by his sissy and most of her friends-and 'baby Banks' by others! We often still refer to him as Preston Banks because we prayed for him for so long as that. We were going to decide which name he "looked like" after he was born, but as you know, we had a little more than a name to think about!

We have been going what feels like non stop! We've been to the mountains, to the beach and visiting family and friends! Both of my kiddo's have pretty bad sinus infections at the moment but have been healthy otherwise-we have so much to be thankful for! We have been going to the free movie on hot days, playing in the sprinklers, and spending lots of time playing dress up, crafting and whatever else we can do inside to beat the heat. Mary Wallace is doing really well potty training-so that's another good reason to stay close to home! She is such a great big sister! We'll be playing downstairs and she'll say, "Yets (lets) go check on baby bwother." AKA-wake him up! I want to see him! I gently remind her that he needs his morning nap and she needs some time with me! Her newest Wallace-isms are:

(this one happened at the beach while my cousin Misty was serving little individual servings of banana pudding in cups...upon seeing the dessert she yelled loudly) "Hey y'all-I need to stick my finger in sum-a-dat!" Yes, she is saying y'all!

some others...

Me:Mary Wallace, Mommy said no, not right now, maybe later.

MW: Ok, Mama, we see about dat later, k?

or

"Mama, yet (let) me do it...dat (that) be good?"

and while singing the "beloved" Barney song..."Me love you, Me love you, we're a happy family"...and then she gets the rest of the song right it's just the first part that gets her every time!

And while we are saying our prayers, I obviously always start with what we are thanking God for, and then what we are petitioning God for. Well she just thanks God for everything. We have been asking God to heal Aunt Nellie's tummy and help Daddy's lip to feel better but she prays "Dear God, thank you for Aunt Nellie's tummy, thank you for Daddy's lip, thank you for my boo boo..." It's really kinda funny sometimes and I have to keep a straight face-but the sweet innocent moments are the ones I'll cherish forever. She is STILL obsessed with John the Baptist and we read about him nightly. She loves to teach her bible lesson to her baby dolls and stuffed animals. Now seems to be such a critical point for her learning and she is repeating everything!

Many of you will laugh at this, but when I found out that I was having a boy I COULD NOT WAIT to dress my kids alike! I am all about some brother/sister clothes! Then, when we found out about his hernia, I wondered if he didn't make it how it would feel to be shopping, knowing that there should be someone else to buy for, someone else to dress alike for the picture...obviously not one of my "big" worries at the time, but just one of those things I thought about! And now that it's the "season" for home clothing shows for kids, I LOVE buying them clothes to match! I probably have 1 more year to do this without Daniel telling me no way...and I'm going to milk it for all it's worth! :)

"There were 2 in the bed...

...and the little one said Roll Over, Roll Over"-that's all my squirmy boy does these days. He can go from back to tummy easily but has done tummy to back only a few times. He's so fun to watch! This month has brought about a major growth spurt, consistently sleeping through the night (hooray), LOTS of drool, more smiles, and lots of coos. He is so funny tracking Mary Wallace as she moves about through the house and is less startled by her loud noises and being all up in his face! :) We made our first 'road trip' to Atlanta and he did great riding in the car, so great that we are going to the mountains next weekend for my family reunion. I took "2 babies" to the zoo for the first time. (Side bar-that's Mary Wallace's new thing-"Mommy you hold 2 babies?" meaning she wants me to hold her while I'm currently holding him! Or, "Mommy you take 2 babies outside?" Looking back, when we pray I often say how thankful I am that God has given me 2 babies! So that's where she's getting it!) Preston Banks has a few new nicknames Drooly Boy and Squirmy. The child is very laid back but is always turning his head to see what is going on or squirming around in your arms while you hold him. And when he's in the bouncy seat you MUST buckle both straps tightly or he will turn over and roll out (almost happened to me-just crown me Mother of the Year!)


Time is flying - I can't believe how quickly 4 months have passed. I long for a pause button for life right now. I love the ages of my babies and I LOVE to see them together. Mary Wallace is into helping change his diaper, helping push him in the stroller, rolling beside him on the floor to show him how to do it-and both of my babies are cuddle bugs, especially at night. They love to read books and sing songs-I often get misty eyed as I hear Mary Wallace singing 'mazing Grace or Jesus Loves Me. I love to hear her ask for "Don the Baptist" also known as John the Baptist or "Whale Swallowed Jonah" EVERY NIGHT when asked if there is a special bible story she would like to read. I love to hear her sing our bible verses or use character words that I think she will NEVER understand i.e. "Ok Mommy, I be patient for you" or "I sorry Mommy, I use kind words"...she is a little sponge right now and I love this teaching time.

These days baby Banks loves to coo, and I've found his tickle spot-just underneath his bottom rib-where is scar is! He's so precious! He squirms and does this cute cough/laugh when I tickle him. He just goes with the flow and is pretty laid back. He loves to sit in the Bumbo seat and is getting too long for the bouncy seat! Sometimes, it still feels like a dream...all that we went through, all that God has provided...but he has the scar to prove it-and I pray that I will never stop telling Preston Banks how God has already worked in his little life!

PS I failed to post that our meeting with the cardiologist went well. He did an EKG in his office and the hole in his heart is still there, however he doesn't have any signs of pulmonary hypertension (both clinically and through the EKG and ECHO) so we will go back to see him in July for a follow up ECHO to keep track of things. Please continue to pray that the hole will close on it's own.

Two Months and Two Years

So, it's been awhile since I've posted...and my babies are growing up SO fast! These are two of my favorite pictures of them! Mary Wallace has become obcessed with umbrella's ever since the Great Snowstorm 2010-and my little smily man-that picture sums him up!

Mary Wallace turned two four days after Preston Banks came home and I never wrote a "2 Year' post for her...here are some of my favorite "Mary Wallaceisms"

-"Mommy, opeM it please..." (with an M instead of an N...too cute to correct)

-upon entering a local children's shoe boutique..."I love dese boots mommy, and dese flip flops...and dese pincess shoes (that's what she calls high heels)"

-"Hi baby bwover, I love you baby bwover" several times during the day she will say this and be SUPER excited like she's never seen him before.

-"Get some more" and "Buy Some"...she says this about everything she wants to do again or have more of..."Get some more slide and swing" "Daddy get some more yogert" or "Mommy buy some new shoes (meaning for HER and with her head tiled slightly)

-I love DIS one...as she points to shoes, a dress, a bow...she is a girly girl and LOVES to shop...her Daddy is in trouble!!

-And my favorite-"Mommy push that butt"...she means button!

She is my precious baby girl and I don't know what I would do without her! How blessed I am to have "one of each"!

SO much has happened in the last few weeks. We have seen the pediatric pulmonologist, gotten our first round of shots, x-rays, follow-up appointment with the surgeon, ECHO...and all were an "A+" except for the ECHO. He still has the hole in his heart with some shunting so we are going to see the pediatric cardiologist this coming Thursday. For all that my little man has been through-we have so much to be thankful for. Every time I change his diaper or give him a bath and see his scar (which is healing SO well) I am reminded of everything he (and WE) have been through, and how I have witnessed God's healing hand. Please pray with me that He will heal this hole in his heart and that we will get answers to our questions on Thursday!

Oh, and he will be 3 months old in 3 days so I'll post faster this time! :)

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Before and After

So, the x-ray pics tell a large part of Little Man's story. The first one is the x-ray that was taken right after he was born. You can double click on the image to make it larger. He is laying on the x-ray plate so our right is his left. So I'm going to reference how they look in the pictures to make it easier. The large "mass" pushed over to the left is his heart. The spaghetti looking noodles are his intestine (small and part of large, appendix, and spleen all where they should not be)! The black space on the right down in his abdomen is air-where his intestine should be. The second picture is after his repair-his heart is back at midline, his bowel is back down where it should be and if you look closely at his lungs you can see where one is larger than the other-the smaller one looks amazing though!!

My dear friends, this is the result of God's hand. Surgeons can perform surgery. Doctors and nurses can administer drugs, give oxygen and the best "care" possible. But they can not make lungs grow. No amount of science, technology, "religion", or luck can make this happen. But The Great Physician can..."for nothing is impossible with God" Luke 1:37.

I did not see the first x-ray until after his surgery. Daniel saw it the first day while I was still in recovery. And looking back on it now, it's probably best that I didn't see it. So much emotion comes back as I look at that x-ray. We were so anxious-waiting as each hour passed. Praying and hoping, yet trusting God for HIS best for Preston Banks. And then, that night, as he was just hours old, Dr. Rao and Dr. Camps told us that he would undergo surgery the next day because his pulmonary pressure was so good and he was remaining so stable-ENTER FEAR!! If you recall-we were told that in the best case scenario we would have surgery in 48 hours. They would need time to "watch him" and see how stable he was. I will never forget that night. I slept for 2 hours. All I could do was lay in the bed (with those stupid anti-embolism things puffing on my legs), cry and pray. For God's timing is the perfect timing, but at 3am I was wondering if they were "experimenting" with my precious child. I didn't want any record for fastest surgery-I wanted everything to go as they said in our consult...and this curve ball they threw me was a nasty one!! However-this is the beauty of trusting God. Our timing, the timing that the best doctors and surgeons estimate, has NOTHING to do with what God wants. And letting go of what "normal" is and letting God do what His will is...it's a tough, but sweet place to rest.

So-you know the rest of the story. After only 21 days in the NICU we have a PROUD big sister and a precious baby boy! Mary Wallace still randomly says to this day "I cited, Bwover's home!!" And it brings tears to my eyes and my heart sings..."God is so good, God is so good, God is so Good, He's so good to me...He answer's prayer, He answer's prayer, He answer's prayer He's so good to me." Thank you for your prayers my sweet friends. I am so blessed.

I have attached the link to our first photo session with my dear friend Shannon. She's one of those friends...you know-they laugh with you, cry with you and for you, bring you Starbucks and sit while you spill your thoughts and fears for your unborn child...AND she has an amazing talent with her camera. Thank you dear friend-you captured the moments. Even that sweet bottom lip poking out when I took his passy!!!! http://www.saophotos.com/proofs/pbwebproofs/index.html

Getting Settled

The top one is Mary Wallace taking his pic! :) I said "Hey can I take your picture with brother-and she ran to get her camera-excuse the crazy hair!

Sorry that it's been so long since I posted-we've been trying to find our groove around here! Things are wonderful. We came home on the 10th, Mary Wallace turned 2 on the 14th and I have struggled with second baby guilt A LOT in the last 12 days! I'm really trying to give her 1 on 1 time while he is napping and I try to catch a nap when they are both napping! :)

I can't believe that Preston Banks was 1 month old on Saturday and will be home for 2 weeks as of Wednesday. Time flies when we are having fun! Mary Wallace is enjoying having "baby bwover" home. She LOVES to show anyone and everyone his room, sometimes multiple times. She thinks that it's the funniest thing when he "opens eyes"-in most of the pictures she saw he had his eyes closed-so she thinks it's the greatest when he opens them when she is crawling on top of him in the bouncy seat or climbing on the side of the bassinet to "see him"! The hardest part for her is when I'm feeding him and then having to pump afterward (just call me Bessie the Cow because I have all of this milk). That's a long time for my now 2 year old to be patient! Preston Banks is a good Baby Wise baby (yes I wake a sleeping baby to feed him) and the NICU helped with that! Thanks ladies-you did the hard work. His last night time feed is around 10-10:30 he wakes up around 3 and them again between 6:30 or 7! He doing so great!

We went to the surgeon, Dr. Camps, today for a follow-up. He said that his lungs sound good. We will have a follow-up x-ray next month and then meet with Dr. Camps again to make sure that his diaphragm has healed and see how his lung is growing (My next post will have the before and after x-rays!) We meet with the pediatric pulmonologist Dr. Brown, our pediatrician Dr. Dodds, and have an ECHO on his heart next month. We also get another Synagis shot to help prevent RSV. We got the sermon before we left the NICU, no church, no Walmart, no large crowds, no malls, no being around germy people-you get the drift. The common cold for us could be really bad for Preston Banks and I don't want to go back to the hospital so we will follow the doctor's orders!! We are psycho about hand washing around here-please reschedule a visit if you or your kids are sick!~It's not that we don't love you or want to see you-we just can't have little man getting sick!

We can't thank you enough again for all that you have done and are still doing. Your cards, kind words, phone calls, text messages, gifts and meals continue to humble and overwhelm us and always come at just the right moment. We thank God for you-our family and friends. To Dennis and Donna (Daniel's youth soccer coach)-Daniel wanted to send a special thank you-your kindness is so appreciated & "Sting never quit!" and thanks for the picture!

He's Coming Home!!!!!!

From Day 1....to Day 20!!

Tomorrow is the day that I have LONGED for, prayed for and anticipated...I can't put into words how excited we are that Preston Banks is coming home tomorrow!!!! Mary Wallace helped me put his car seat in the car tonight and said "Side you. Baby Bwover sit side you"-I can not wait to drive home from the hospital with my TWO children...as a family of four. I look forward to the sleepless nights...not like the ones I've had where I'm up pumping and worried about what kind of night he's having. Only calling the NICU two times each night, but wanting to call more. NOW-I get to hold him, comfort him, feed him, change his diapers...all of those "normal" things that you get to do as a mother. I no longer have a "visit" my baby boy, he will be home.

I am overwhelmed at God's goodness, His mercy, His faithfulness, His provision for each moment, and now, for HIS perfect timing in bringing our little man home. I have so much more to say-but I've gotta get his "coming home outfit" ready and pack the rest of his coming home gear so I'll share my thoughts when I'm up tomorrow night at 2am...watching him breathe!! We are coming home with NOTHING-no monitors, no medication, no nothing...and I'm a little nervous so please pray for us as we adjust to being a family of FOUR! What a mighty God we serve...and I could NEVER thank all of our NICU nurses and doctors enough. They have made the last 3 weeks easier on us, knowing that Preston Banks has been in the best hands with people who have his best interest in mind and love him. I am going to miss them so much. I have made some wonderful friendships in the last 20 days-they have loved my baby in ways that I couldn't! Thank you ALL!